|When It’s Not Raining|
I made myself
A dark cloud
That surrounds me
Made up of people
I thought were my homies
So many chances
to be struck by lightning
Three wasn’t enough?
Had to show I was tough!
Dark cloud follows me
Have too many friend enemies
Feel like it’s a test for me
Like something I need to complete
Maybe it’s my perspective
Maybe it’s just my reflection
Maybe it’s just a bend in the light
Maybe it’s just a thief in the night
Lost in a ghost town
Thoughts in my head
Getting so loud
If it’s day time
Why so dark now
Clouds clouds clouds
•|01.15.2024|•
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I’m I An Alcoholic
Her name was vodka
Her body had the most beautiful shape
Much prettier than the other bottles
When she went down
She went down on me hard
When I woke up
She would always be gone
Leaving her taste in my mouth
I’m always thirsty
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Am I Ghost
Am I your ghost?
I thought I was human
But you can see through me
My sex is not mechanical
Yet you still find ways to hurt me
No one wants to be held
Held accountable
You were just a succubus
No one loves a 60ft octopus
They keep cutting off the tentacles
They keep growing back to be cut
Like the hydra I am who is
The memory worth forgetting
|03/23/2020|
|In This Moment Of Gray|
In this time of
Black and white
Everything is
turning gray
No shade to color
If I were to color
Every color
would be gray
Not the color of
black or white
Just a less bright
color of the day
Every shade of every color
Just a more depressed gray
Greyer shades of every gray
The people who use to shout
Have less and less to say
Its hard to be inspired
if nothing has changed
History repeats
with everything new
Everything stays the same
I know you would like to think
And I’d like to say you’re right
But facts are facts gray is gray
Human rights?
Nothing has changed
Animal rights?
Nothing has changed
Protecting our planet?
Nothing had changed
But what about all this technology?
Nothing has changed
And were still gray
We are the Greys
|02|17|18|
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|Something In My Teeth|
I am trying to spend a little bit of time.
Spending hours minus the minutes.
Youth was spent, wasting away.
Trying to give you the respect that wasn’t given.
Moments in the flesh forgiven.
On death bed asking for forgiveness.
Just another life wasted.
All for someone else’s sins.
Never stole, raped, or beaten.
Only monsters followed in shadows.
I lived blind in the streets when the one eyed man was king.
I can’t remember how this goes:
Was it down the street?
Or cross the road?
Was it down the street?
Or cross the road?
I’m not here…
You thought you saw me smile
It was just the light.
At the end of a tunnel
|02|15|18|
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|Time Wasters|
We are the time wasters
Strangled by our parents youth.
We hate the haters,
we love the lovers.
This was someone,
I used to get to know…
I became jaded,
And I became old.
And bet I never sold my soul…
I lost everything,
Including control.
I got to where I wanted to be.
And now I am asking…
God help me,
God help me, see the light.
You’re the sun
The reason for moon light
I may be broken
But I am high off your glue
I just need you to undo
Go back to what I was meant to
Before I got lost in who’s you
|04|04|18|
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|Be_LIE_ve In The li_F_e|
I know that time doesn’t exist
I know that I’m
Just going threw it
Moments of bliss
Moments of shit
In this moment…
Is happiness just a word?
To describe a moment
To describe THAT moment
Remembered in time
You asked,
I’m fine
I won’t go into detail
To define
What’s on my mind
Know this…
Did you notice?
These moments
Past tense.
Those moments,
Past attends to hurt you
Past amend the virtues
What I say can’t hurt you
Once filled with light
Once filled with life
One hand
Hope
One hand
Knife
That’s the lie
The LIE in LI(f)E
The fake fakery
The trick trickery
|04|08|2018|
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|Blind Man’s Eye|
You are beautiful like a dead flower
Although you bring colour to a blind man’s eye
I am much prettier than other flowers
My heart is yours, your soul is still mine
You never stopped to water a dead flower
In mobile attached to all the screens
They read all of your whispers
They’ll never answer your screams
You never think about your true intentions
Never stopped to realize mine
We all are victims of shitty inventions
We are all here to waste time
I’m here to spend mine more wisely
I’ll gather all of the troops
You do what you have to
Running in your loops
I told you how to beat this
Time is running out
We only get four years
To figure this shit out
You can pivot and riot
You don’t know what this is about
You think you have the answers
You only started to figure it out
Its not the banks or the oil although the gangsters play their part
On tv like actors spewing lyrics claiming it is art
telling you everything is ok when we are all dying the same way
investing in the problem watching our parents lay away
I talk about waste I talk about death
I talk about these things that are in effect
cause soon theres almost nothing left
Nothing but our thoughts and breath
we can’t eat money
and
life is no longer funny
soon nothin will be left just our dying breath
the earth will forgive us
will be able to forgive ourselves
the earth will go on without us.
|12|12|12|
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|Error 404 Face|
To search for what “this” is is pointless,
“It” is already here, we search for how to become when the search is within. To just “be” is one of the hardest tasks in a world of constant stimulation. We think it’s a struggle we move away from the quiet to be entertained by the busy then book small amounts of time to have off from the busy, but keep being drawn to stay with no concern for our mental well being.
|10|10|17|
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|Maybe I am Just Dumb Or Maybe I Am Just Happy|
My brain is stupid
With the screens
If you know what I mean?
I don’t learn anything at all…
The lesson we are taught,
In the wars that were fought,
Who will catch us when we fall?
This doesn’t mean anything at all.
I’m not talking about a country that rules us all,
I’m talking about the courtesy of persuasion, in the way that we’re talking, that leads to the benefits of all.
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I Love
I got a weird feeling
What is this…?
Same feeling I get
From our hugs,
And when we kiss…
Said I love you,
I mean this…
Love the feel of your lips,
Extraterrestrial finger tips.
When I sleep I dream
Of people I have never met (yet)
We do amazing things (so)
When I wake I never forget
I have a dream book
It’s a cookbook
For art I haven’t created
Whenever I make art
From my heart
not from concentrate
It’s so underrated
I debate if at times
it’s over complicated
|Dec. 03 2019|
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Are we pretending now?
Let’s pretend
we were never lovers
Like
I never saw you naked
under the covers
Like we never felt anything
For each-other
When I see you just smile &
nod at one or the other
Like we were never friends
Currently not lovers
Yeah we fucked so whatever?
Let’s pretend
we never thought forever
Like love is a psychosis but we found each other
All these mind games we played
Hey at least we did it together
I’m clear on one word
That word is “forever”
It sounds the same as
meh “whatever”
When I look at you I see right thru
When you look what do you see
Not me, it’s not me.
Cause our love
Destroyed me
There’s no new or old me
Just a broken me
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I Don’t Owe You Anything
You don’t know me
As much as you think you do
You cannot see
the love I have for you
In my eyes
all we see is sadness
Grinning smiles threw our teeth
Moments of happiness
I need to feed
It’s bliss when we kiss
Someone missing in me
I need to feed my dying seed
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Emotional Animal
I don’t feel human anymore
I never could fit in
Never found my place
I’m just a gaijin
I don’t feel he or she
I am a biological machine
I’m not trying to be mean
I’m just being me
I don’t feel like a human being
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Killed By The Little Ones
I’m tired of you
Looking at my soul
With you’re beautiful eyes
Saying beautiful lies
Even if it were the truth
There’s nothing I could do
I won’t admit I still loved you
Cause
That doesn’t leave me in control
Cause
I recently recovered my soul
Cause
I started to cover that hole
With emotions I am trying to hold
When I seen you so beautiful reminded me of yesterday
but yesterday is a million years away
I am creating the black sun
Around my body a golden cloud
You’re the hydrant with five heads who I will never cut down
I love you but
We don’t travel alone
I love you but
Lost can never be found
I love you
I can be seen
Without making a sound
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I am still here
Everything happens for a reason
Part of the game has already been played
we are not in season
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What’s My Age?
I forgot my age
Forgot the number
Forgot why I wrote this
Doesn’t even matter?
Does it matter to you
All the shit that you do
Said you never gave a shit
Saying so; I think that you do
I look at the people
Seems like things are changing
Everyone’s on 💯 about everything
💯 percent without a meaning
Saying so I sound so demeaning
Not trying to rhyme
Pointing out the obvious is now a crime
Time to go back inside
start building up these walls of mine
Blurryface?
Yeah you will never see the picture
I’m Like
if Marilyn Manson & Jim carry had a baby
Only way more immature
Always been some kinda of entertainment for my guests,
when I am happy sad or simply just depressed,
no one gets to enjoy my love they just see the stress,
they wonder
“How could I ever be friends with Wes?”
What a mess!
He’s late and negative
Depressing & repetitive
Historian & journalist
Conspiracist theorist
Who needs a sedative
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|In This Moment Of Gray| In this time of Black and white Everything is turning gray No shade to color If I were to color Every color would be gray Not the color of black or white Just a less bright color of the day Every shade of every color Just a more depressed gray Greyer shades of every gray The people who use to shout Have less and less to say Its hard to be inspired if nothing has changed History repeats with everything new Everything stays the same I know you would like to think And I'd like to say you're right But facts are facts gray is gray Human rights? Nothing has changed Animal rights? Nothing has changed Protecting our planet? Nothing had changed But what about all this technology? Nothing has changed And were still gray We are the Greys |02|17|18| _____________________________________________
|Something In My Teeth| I am trying to spend a little bit of time. Spending hours minus the minutes. Youth was spent, wasting away. Trying to give you the respect that wasn't given. Moments in the flesh forgiven. On death bed asking for forgiveness. Just another life wasted. All for someone else's sins. Never stole, raped, or beaten. Only monsters followed in shadows. I lived blind in the streets when the one eyed man was king. I can't remember how this goes: Was it down the street? Or cross the road? Was it down the street? Or cross the road? I'm not here... You thought you saw me smile It was just the light. At the end of a tunnel |02|15|18| _______________________________________________
|Time Wasters| We are the time wasters Strangled by our parents youth. We hate the haters, we love the lovers. This was someone, I used to get to know... I became jaded, And I became old. And bet I never sold my soul... I lost everything, Including control. I got to where I wanted to be. And now I am asking... God help me, God help me, see the light. You're the sun The reason for moon light I may be broken But I am high off your glue I just need you to undo Go back to what I was meant to Before I got lost in who's you |04|04|18| ______________________________________________
|Be_LIE_ve In The li_F_e| I know that time doesn't exist I know that I'm Just going threw it Moments of bliss Moments of shit In this moment... Is happiness just a word? To describe a moment To describe THAT moment Remembered in time You asked, I'm fine I won't go into detail To define What's on my mind Know this... Did you notice? These moments Past tense. Those moments, Past attends to hurt you Past amend the virtues What I say can't hurt you Once filled with light Once filled with life One hand Hope One hand Knife That's the lie The LIE in LI(f)E The fake fakery The trick trickery |04|08|2018| _____________________________________________ |Blind Man's Eye| You are beautiful like a dead flower Although you bring colour to a blind man's eye I am much prettier than other flowers My heart is yours, your soul is still mine You never stopped to water a dead flower In mobile attached to all the screens They read all of your whispers They'll never answer your screams You never think about your true intentions Never stopped to realize mine We all are victims of shitty inventions We are all here to waste time I'm here to spend mine more wisely I'll gather all of the troops You do what you have to Running in your loops I told you how to beat this Time is running out We only get four years To figure this shit out You can pivot and riot You don't know what this is about You think you have the answers You only started to figure it out Its not the banks or the oil although the gangsters play their part On tv like actors spewing lyrics claiming it is art telling you everything is ok when we are all dying the same way investing in the problem watching our parents lay away I talk about waste I talk about death I talk about these things that are in effect cause soon theres almost nothing left Nothing but our thoughts and breath we can't eat money and life is no longer funny soon nothin will be left just our dying breath the earth will forgive us will be able to forgive ourselves the earth will go on without us. |12|12|12| ______________________________________________ |Error 404 Face| To search for what “this” is is pointless, “It” is already here, we search for how to become when the search is within. To just “be” is one of the hardest tasks in a world of constant stimulation. We think it's a struggle we move away from the quiet to be entertained by the busy then book small amounts of time to have off from the busy, but keep being drawn to stay with no concern for our mental well being. |10|10|17| ___________________________________________________ |Maybe I am Just Dumb Or Maybe I Am Just Happy| My brain is stupid With the screens If you know what I mean? I don't learn anything at all... The lesson we are taught, In the wars that were fought, Who will catch us when we fall? This doesn't mean anything at all. I'm not talking about a country that rules us all, I'm talking about the courtesy of persuasion,
in the way that we're talking, that leads to the benefits of all. ________________________
I Love
I got a weird feeling What is this...? Same feeling I get From our hugs, And when we kiss...
Said I love you, I mean this... Love the feel of your lips, Extraterrestrial finger tips.
When I sleep I dream Of people I have never met (yet) We do amazing things (so) When I wake I never forget
I have a dream book It's a cookbook For art I haven't created
Whenever I make art From my heart its not from concentrate It's so underrated I debate it at times it's over complicated |Dec. 03 2019| --------------------------------------- Emotional Animal
I don't feel human anymore I never could fit in Never found my place I'm just a gaijin I don't feel he or she I am a biological machine I'm not trying to be mean I'm just being me I don't feel like a human being
-------------------------------------------------- Killed By The Little Ones
I'm tired of you Looking at my soul With you're beautiful eyes Saying beautiful lies
Even if it were the truth There's nothing I could do I won't admit I still loved you
Cause That doesn't leave me in control Cause I recently recovered my soul Cause I started to cover that hole With emotions I am trying to hold
When I seen you so beautiful reminded me of yesterday but yesterday is a million years away
I am creating the black sun Around my body a golden cloud You're the hydrant with five heads who I will never cut down
I love you but We don't travel alone I love you but Lost can never be found I love you I can be seen Without making a sound -------------------------------------- I am still here Everything happens for a reason Part of the game has already been played we are not in season
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That I No Longer Use